"Daddy come back!"

. . . . . .  Asher Tilleman . . .  Jan 2, 2024 . . . on voice chat

I miss my daddy so much! We wd often go to the park together and play. We wd have many happy times together. My daddy loves me and I love my daddy, but now he is gone out of my life and I am so sad!

How cd I explain to you, when you were 3 years and 8 months old at that time, that I did not leave you but that you were taken away from me by the threats of your mother? Altho she apologized for making threats and provoking, she continued with this activity, so it was not a genuine apology. On this recording you can be heard saying " I don't want it .... mommy I'm crying..."  You were being affected by the problems between me and your mother. Even at that young age (3 years old) you were showing evidence that the turmoil between us was affecting you. 

From Daddy to Asher

  

I miss being with you and playing together with you, and going to the parky with you. Remember how we used to enjoy tea, juicy, and "mena" together. You are such a big part of my life, my precious son. I love you so much Asher!

Love,

Daddy

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Happy Birthday Asher!

 

You were 4 years old on April 24, 2024. Unfortunately I was not allowed to be with you on your birthday and I was not even allowed to send you a gift because I was not told were you are, so I didn't know where to send a gift to. And I was not allowed to talk with you on your birthday. I was not even told about anything at all that happened on your birthday. Your mother continues to use you as a weapon against me. But I am thinking about you my precious son! I love you so much and I miss you so much!

I am so sorry sweetheart. I don't know anything that is going on in your life. This is May 28, 2024 and I am not told anything that happens there with you, and I do not know anything about your situation there or what you are involved with or what happens in your life. It is not because I do not care about you that you do not hear from me, but it is because your mother blocks me out of your life and prevents me from communicating with you, and prevents you from communicating with me. I am so sorry about this Asher.


I love you Asher!

 

Your grama (Jane Siamafuwa) and your cousins Martin and Natalie Siamafuwa in Zambia supported your being taken away from me, and not one of them tried to intervene to stop it. They are all against you and me, and shamefully not one of them had the courage to stand up for what is right and defend you and me. Do not be deceived by how friendly and sweet they appear to be to you. This is an act. Have nothing to do with them. Furthermore, NONE of your relatives from your mother's family in Zambia defended you.

I came across this song called "My Son" which is sung by Vera Lynn. 

This is Oct 31st, 2024, and your mother has still blocked you our of my life with no news about you at all, (not that I expect her to tell the truth anyway) and she still prevents me from communicating with you and I do not even know where you are.

Nov 20, 2024 marks one year that you and I have been separated, but not by my choice, but because I was forced out by your mother.

Today is Dec 25th. 2024. Merry Christmas my precious son. Sadly we are not enjoying Christmas together because your mother keeps us apart, and shamefully does not tell me anything about your Christmas there, what you were doing at Christmas, and sends no fotos, and no Christmas chatting with you. But I shd not need her permission to be with you! This is evil of your mother to deprive us of each other!

   

1-2-2025 Your mother continues to keep us apart from each other and does not allow any communication between us. She continues to use you as a weapon against me. And you need your father in your life but she has taken me away from you against my will. What your mother is doing is evil! So sorry Asher that you do not have your father in your life. You can blame your mother for this because it is she who has orchestrated this. I want you to protest against this to your mother and tell her that what she is doing is evil! Be strong like your father and fight against this evil and demand that she quits using you as a weapon to hurt me, and that she allows you come to Zambia to be with your father.

I look forward to flying to Canada and bringing you here to Zambia, and enjoying your first plane ride with you. It will be so much fun!

Asher, please also visit hell.Asher.africa

12-04-25 Your birthday will be in 12 days and your mother refuses to allow me to come to be with you on your birthday! Do I need permission from her to be with you? No! But she acts as if she is god and controls your life and mine. She continues to make us suffer. This is your 2d birthday that she has deprived me of being with you. I am (or am suppose to be) the head of the family, but she has made herself the malevolent dictator and despot. It is evil what she is doing! I do not even know your address so that I cannot even send you a gift. 

26-04-25 audio recording April 26
Your birthday was 2 days ago and I am sorry that I was not able to be there with you. I do not even know your address so I was not able to send you a birthday gift. And further, if I did know your address and did show up at your place, your mother wd call the police and have me arrested, not because I have done anything wrong, but because your mother is evil! She enjoys keeping us apart from each other and she continues to use you as a weapon against me! She has kept us apart from each other for the past 1.5 years and for your 4th and 5th birthdays and the last two Christmases. Your mother has a depraved, malevolent, and deranged mind and is living in a  sadistic and deranged fantasy world. Your mother is evil! 

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Live your life according to Divine Principles. Follow after righteousness, and remember that the most most important goal and passion in your life shd be to build your life and live your life growing into a progressively higher and higher level of character and integrity. Your character and integrity is your greatest assett in life, and is more important than everything else combined.

There are a number of Principles, but I finally figured out about 2 or 3 years ago that all principles stem from one core principle which is:
 

Whatever action I consider taking or not taking, or words I consider saying or not saying, or attitude I take, I shd first ask myself this question: am I mature and responsible enuff to accept any and all consequences or possible consequences of this action or inaction, words spoken or not spoken, or attitude, whether these consequences are (or will be) present or future, known or unknown, anticipated or not, are direct or indirect consequences of my action or non action.

May 18, 2025. I am still not allowed to speak with you. And I know nothing that is happening in your life and I am still deprived of neing your father. Your mother has totally blocked us from each other. This is evil of her to be doing this. She is living in a delusional malevolent sadistic fantasy world in which she enjoys perpetuating evil. She has caused hurt to both of us. She relished this power and control that the uses against us. She enjoys inflicting pain and hurt and sorrow.